Several years ago, I fell into focusing my year around a single word. Those words have been ones like: accept, grace, simplify, rest. This year, I was beginning to think that this would be a different plan, as I just had no specific words that "felt" right, until today...
Share.
No, I don't mean like the toddler's mama, constantly reminding her little one to balance "mine" with "yours". This is more aligned with sharing my life, my thoughts and feelings, more honestly with others. I don't lie about my life, but I do keep much of my worries and struggles, my wants and desires, my truest self, hidden. It sounds amusing to say when I'm blogging this, but I hesitate to let people in to my heart, because I fear that they'd see ME, and turn away.
My husband has urged me to be more open and share more for years. As he's told me many times, "connection grows from shared weaknesses, not strengths". He's got a lot of wisdom behind this, but openness scared me. I'm still scared about being "too" open, but I think I'm seeing this a little differently now, too. I'm not going to be open just for the sake of openness; no, I'm going to be sharing myself, more of myself, with the people who already know and love me. Instead of burying it and maybe being a little more distant, I'll share if my feelings are hurt. I'll share what struggles that I'm going through, and I'll share more of the moments that take my breath away or warm my heart. I'll be more honest in sharing what I really think, instead of simply zipping my lips. This is an area that God's pushing me to grow into more for His glory, and I have to try.
So, what about you? Do you make resolutions, use a focus word, or no change with the new year?
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